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On 2007, in list form

January 23, 2008

The Best of 2007:

  1. Finding my super-sweet apartment, and moving to San Francisco
    I’ve always felt the pull of the city, and since I was driving up there every other day, to go to class, to see friends, to hear music, it made more sense to live there. I found my apartment on craigslist and almost didn’t go to the showing, since they didn’t post pictures in the ad. Am I ever glad I went!
  2. Falling in love
    When I met T in June, I thought he was handsome and interesting, but was convinced that he had been blown away by one of the other stunning girls at the party. I dropped a hint to his roommate that I thought he was cute, and soon she was announcing to an entire party that I was going to make out with him a week later. She was right. We haven’t stopped since.
  3. Meeting a group of people on my own
    I have amazing friends. But many of the people I’ve met through the years has been through people I’ve been dating, and more than once that’s come back to bite me when the relationship ends. So a year and a half ago, I joined a social networking site and ended up falling in with a group that I adore. For the first time, I’ve beat the paranoia that’s been haunting me since middle school. But at the same time…
  4. Maintaining contact with older friends
    It’s important to have that support system. That group of people who knew you ‘back then,’ who can see how you’ve changed and improved and still love you. It’s been difficult at times, but it’s comforting to know that even if I haven’t spoken to someone for awhile, we can just pick up again, because we’ll always have that bond.

The Worst of 2007:

  1. My health
    I tried to keep it quiet for most of the year, but I think I can officially call 2007 “the year I hated food.” I’m sure it was stress related, but it was a year full of upset stomachs, heartburn, diarrhea, and lack of interest in food. I hit my lowest point in spring, when I added not sleeping to not eating, which put me in a pretty crazy state. I appreciate the people closest to me putting up with it (and shame on those who didn’t). While things still aren’t 100%, bodywise, I’d say there’s a definite improvement so far, and the sleeping? It is wonderful.
  2. Getting my heart broken
    In the midst of the worst of my tears, a good friend pointed out that it was more or less the first time in my adult life that I had been dumped. Which made me feel better about completely falling apart, as I hadn’t really developed the tools that come with constant rejection. I have so much more I could say on this, but I’m making a conscious effort in 2008 to let go of the negative feels about things I cannot change. 9 months of grieving is enough.
  3. Breaking the heart of someone else
    2007 saw the end of my longest relationship to date: 5 years. And while Grumpus and I were content, I was far from happy, and there were so many things I wanted to do with my life that he didn’t want to do with me (see previous list). The relationship had run its course, and though I was the one who brought up the subject, I file the break up under “mutual.” He’s kind of lonely now, but he remains my best friend, and I speak to him at least every other day. I can’t imagine life without him, and I’m amazed that we could go backwards like this so smoothly. I think we’re atypical.
  4. Talking shit and getting caught
    After getting my heart broken, I tried to keep things pleasant, to keep things easy for mutual friends. However, the looming prospect of seeing him and his girlfriend made me extremely nervous, so I something that every teenage girl has done: I brought others down  to make myself feel better. It was pretty tame, but that doesn’t make it okay. It got back to them, and I got called out on it. But the part that feels the worst to me is that someone had to have told them. Instead of just saying to me, “He’s still my friend and it makes me uncomfortable when you talk like that,” they turned around and ratted me out. This started to set off the paranoia meter, but a few long chats with a few good friends calmed me down, and I can now say that’s behind me.

The Best Things I Said in 2007:

  1. I’m Peter Parker, bitch!
  2. Not a block-rockin’ beat, but a beet-blockin’ rock.
  3. Hold still, you must have leaned on something, you’re dusty. I don’t think we’ve met.

I am completely full of optimism for 2008! Now I just need to find a project.

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One comment

  1. hey, you really do have a blog! nice work.



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